January 2011

Sixty one now
Sitting here smoking a smokeless ciggarette (akin to sucking on a bic pen)
12 lbs. overweight, other than the volumptous C cups...the rest is beyond hideously foreign....
In spite of yet another year of very hardwork, pulling out all the stops, jumping thru hoops, juggling everything....making lemonade from lemons.....the brew was for the most part vile.
2010 WITH BUT ONE EXCEPTION, was a rather downer year...A "hit the wall" kinda year.
THE BRIGHT SPOT...the SAVING GRACE, MY GRANDSON...a healthy baby JACK!

CHANGE is never easy....the older one gets, the more daunting change becomes. When once "risk" was considered exhilerating, motivating, and filled with promise.....one day you wake up and view it as terrifiying... Of course when there's little to loose, risk carries little weight, when there's everything to loose at an age when re-cooping losses isn't all that favorable, one tends to think LONG AND HARD to make risky changes.

LOTS on my mind...lots weighing heavy these days.....change HAS to happen that much is for certain. CAN'T HAVE ANOTHER 2010, that's the resolution!